I was going to spend my summer searching for the meaning of life....to find a vision...to find my spirituality. I was going to hike somewhere in the wilderness naked. BE WILD and FREE. Why? because I never had the chance to know me for the past 1 and 1/2 years of my life. The nursing program is intense. So intense, I didn't even know who I was anymore, had no time for my family, and the only friends I had are the same people I see during clinicals. So what the hell? Whaddido this whole summer?
I did nothing. I ate, slept, slept some more, watched movies, ate, and slept. The cycle continued. When summer came around, I realized how empty my life was without nursing school. Nursing school made me so damn busy, I cleared everything in my life and devoted to school. I'm such a loser.
As summer is coming to an end, I feel my stomach turning. The thought of waking up 0530 in the morning to get to clinicals makes my brain hurt. Not to mention only getting 3-5hrs of sleep because of write-ups. GOD, I still have to read 100+ chapters in my OB/Ped books in two weeks.
Honestly, the only thing that keeps me going is knowing that I will be done in May 2010. I've been looking at cities and states I would work as an RN. I found that I fell in love with Boston. AH* excitement.
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